Thoughts.

I had a night alone tonight. I took a long bath, watched the People's Choice Awards, watched The Proposal, and cleaned a little. Most of my nights are spent alone due to Jeb traveling, 72% of my time is without him. Although I hate it, tonight I had a lot of time to think. Some happy thoughts some sad, but all together much needed thoughts.

For the first time I think in my life I sat alone with no tv on, or music to fill the silence. No computer in my face or book. Anyone who knows me knows I am scared to death of the dark and when it's night I MUST have something going to distract me from the fact. But just then I looked down and see Lou and Lola. I realized I am not alone. I am thankful for those amazing creatures and to all you out there who are animal lovers you understand. When I am down they are there to love me, cuddle me, and drive me insane. They mean so very much to me. <3

I know they miss Jeb too. When I walk through the door, esp Lola looks instantly behind me to find her Dad. She's depressed because he is gone. She loves him as does Lou. We all do. We miss you when you're gone Jeb.